Steve went off again for a week last week and as always it seems so short since his longer jaunts to Iraq. A week doesn’t seem like much, but I still get worn out. I still get tired of getting the kids off to daycare by myself and being the only one when they come home from daycare trying to balance getting dinner on the table and kids that are just dying for attention and one who never naps anymore. I also get annoyed at the total lack of nutrition as a result. Fish sticks, hot dogs, mac and cheese, more mac and cheese and leftovers. It did make for a week where they ate most of their food. I have the choice to either be really annoyed at making a wonderful delicious and nutritious meal and listen to Gretchen say “that’s disgusting” or “I don’t like <insert name of anything that tastes really good here>” before she’s even seen it on the plate and Wes throwing my efforts all over the floor and table OR feed them wholly innutritious meals which they eat. I go back and forth but definitely when Dada is gone I take the path of least resistance.
I also experienced an unpleasant surprise while Steve was gone, I got a call at work mid-week from the daycare and ended up having a 25 minute conversation about Wes and his biting where I was basically read the policy and am now going to be subject to picking him up at any time if he bites three times in one day. Needless to say I was pretty upset. It seems he’s taking a liking to biting one child in particular and since it’s random they can’t anticipate it and are unable to prevent it. At home he does bite some and it’s always the same situation, when he takes a toy Gretchen is not willing to share, she comes and tries to rip it out of his hands and he bites her because he’s smaller and she backs off. I honestly haven’t been super concerned, he’s young, he can’t talk and she’s bigger than he is and she’s usually trying to take back something she lost interest in and he thought he could play with. But him being viewed as a bully is completely different. And then even though the daycare does a great attempt at keeping names out of it, I still am worried that the victim’s parents just assumes his behavior issues are a result of his parents. I was venting to a co-worker because with Steve being gone, I had no one else to talk to and he just laughed at me and said “oh…just one of the many conversations you’ll have in his lifetime where you’ll plead, but I’m not a bad parent, really.” He had three boys so it made me feel a bit better and validated a little bit of the, this must be a boy thing feeling. So the daycare has moved him into a different room with bigger kids and he’s been fine so far. They said it’s harder for him to bite bigger kids.
The daycare also got me thinking about discipline and the appropriate age. We never really had to establish much discipline with Gretchen. When she cries too much, she gets sent to her room to finish being upset. I am more into encouraging her to recognize her feelings and remove herself to regroup. She really is a good child. She whines a lot but she does try. She asks a lot “am I being a good girl Mama?” which always breaks my heart because it makes me feel like I am not giving her enough positive reinforcement which is what she needs and why the sticker chart works so well for her. But with Wes as the lady who runs the daycare was talking to me, I am thinking to myself really? IS he old enough, does he really get the whole time out thing? Does he really understand he’s hurting the other child? (because the real problem is after he bites he laughs and runs away because he thinks it’s funny, big problem and something I’ve noticed with him. He always laughs when we get mad. ) I just feel like he doesn’t know how to respond yet, he’s still learning what is appropriate and what really can be a game. But a few nights ago I was not getting his cooperation in the bath standing up to be washed and with Gretchen we would threaten to put cold water on her if she didn’t stand up and it only took two times before she would cooperate. So I decided to try it. I asked once…”nnnnnnnnnnnn-o” I said a second time more forcefully…”nnnnnnnnnnnn-o” I said if you don’t stand up I’m going to pour cold water on you….”cold water, cold water” and I’m telling you he was asking for it. I know he had to understand from my tone that it wasn’t something he wanted. I know they understand tones before real speech. And part of me was like, crap he’s a boy, he’s going to like this and it’s going to backfire. So I dumped some cold water on him and the shocked look on his face and the 5 second break before he started crying. I gave him a second and I said stand up and up he shot. And I thought…okay I guess you do get this. I guess it is time to figure out what it is that makes him think twice about doing something he knows he shouldn’t.
And hopefully, no one reads that all the wrong way. I am completely for positive reinforcement over negative. I love that Gretchen thrives on compliments and stickers and earning things. But when it comes to real issues like the safety of themselves or others I want to know what it is that makes my kids listen and know what I can do to make them understand and help them become a good person. Without physical force because I just don’t believe that teaches them the inner integrity I want them to have. I don’t want to force my child to do things, I want them to understand why and believe in what is right.
And speaking of the benefits of the sticker chart and believing in oneself, one of Gretchen’s tasks is to get herself dressed in the morning all by herself. When we started the sticker chart, weeks ago, she wasn’t doing this but I knew she had the ability. Some mornings I had to tackle her and dress her while she was screaming. It was pretty frustrating. Since the birth of the sticker chart, every now and then I have to cajole her to get dressed and sometimes threaten a little, but now she will actually dress herself on the weekends without even being asked it’s awesome (well, this little task in addition to the no more pull-ups and staying dry all night, getting up to pee without being told, awesome, if we quit the sticker thing tomorrow these two things alone made it worth it). But what happens is you have NO idea what she is going to come down wearing. And quite frankly, unless she’s trying to go out into -10 degree weather in thin tights and a t-shirt or something that is showing her underwear, I don’t criticize. I figure if I am making her do it on her own and encouraging it, she can wear whatever. Sometimes I do wonder what the other parents think about us, sometimes she does look like a mismatched herself in a salvation army store dressing room…but she’s dressing herself and making decisions, good for her. There are just the days…when she wants to wear a Christmas outfit (the one I made, yea!) and hot pink tie dyed tights with princess socks to daycare in May…

Steve didn’t make it back to Kenai until Saturday afternoon. So Saturday morning I took the kids to get their hair cut. Wes really needed it. His hair grows so fast and Gretchen gets a cut just because she enjoys it. I’m always impressed with how well they behave. Gretchen got a bit antsy and you can always tell Wes’s limit. The woman that cuts their hair doesn’t cut kids hair all the time and doesn’t have kids of her own so she’s not the quickest but she’s really nice and Gretchen is comfortable with her.

Before

After

Gretchen's long hair
Then after the haircuts we went to the library where Gretchen read, Wes brought her books and climbed all over everything. Once I showed him the container of board books he got into the books for a bit. When he started throwing them I knew it was time to leave.


And since it was Cinco De Mayo and I had a craving for tacos, not to mention not wanting to cook, we decided to go out to eat. We went fairly early (as we always do, we don’t want to subject too many people to our little cherubs) and you wouldn’t have even known what day it was it was so not crowded. It was nice. Something we would never be able to do in Houston. I can’t even imagine going to a restaurant and having to wait for a table. It’s really a luxury.

And because Dada didn’t come home until Saturday afternoon I didn’t get the grocery shopping done so I got up earlier that I would on a Sunday to try and slip out before church to get it done. I wanted to go by myself so I could be fast. But Gretchen gave me this pitiful look when I told her I was grocery shopping without her and if course I just love having my partner with me so I gave in and told her she had to get ready quickly and we would have to be quick as a fox in the store and she simply stepped one step to the right, slid on her rain boots and was like I’m ready. So off we went. When I got home, both kids helped me unload the groceries from the car….it was so cute.

The snow is still melting. Things are a bit of a mucky mess. The kids have been really enjoying playing out in the yard. I’m also trying to do a good job of getting the dog poo cleaned up as the snow recedes but Wes still finds the patches. We have lost two sets of shoes so far to dog poo. Pretty soon he’ll have to go barefoot, maybe that would teach him…hehe. The dog poo situation this year has been rather annoying because of all the snow we got, the dogs pooped in a few areas and the paths leading to those areas. While I thought that would be better it is literally just a thick pile of sludge by the time the snow melts from the layers and layers of it. Gross, huh? Hehe.



Gretchen’s birthday is coming up at the end of the week. We’re having a fun Tangled themed birthday for her. I haven’t been in the RV at all this past week since I have been working on getting things ready for her birthday. I am also trying to continue the tradition of making her a special dress for her b-day. I always get nervous when I make her something and put a lot of effort into it that she’ll hate it and not want to wear it.
Oh, and boxes still rock for kids toys…

And here’s a funny picture, we found a spider walking across our floor on our way out the door in the morning a day or two ago so here is both the kids watching a spider crawling across the floor. Wes of course found it hilarious and kept announcing who’s chair it was crawling under. hehe. (keep in mind this spider, as all spiders are in Alaska, was very small and very non-threatening looking, another thing I enjoy about this location)
